What for?

There is this person, she is having very high stress levels from her masters program.

 

And she choose to vent it on me. So after she release, shiok lah? I seriously do not welcome people treating me like a sandbag out of convenience. I know she is a nice person. But this is the first time I am seeing her losing control over studies. To be frank, I know it is not her fault. But try being in the receiving end when I have my own stress, I keep quiet about it and I kena punch just because I happen to be online.

Study until like that. I am not trying to be mean but academic studies is not for everybody. If one have gone to this state, it means that they are not really calibrated enough. I don’t see really gifted and talented people doing this. They can laugh and study leisurely, and they score good results.

If someone really study until like want to die like that, still nothing comes out, you know, maybe they should just realised that his or her capabilities have reached a bottleneck.

Don’t vent anger on me. Go see a doctor or something. I do not appreciate sudden outburst like this for no reason especially on my job. I keep laboratory animals. Yes, they will be euthanised. (But I am not the one killing them) It is my job. I can quit this job, no problem,  pay for my housing expenses lah?  I go find another job. What ethical job in the fucking opinions is right for me huh? 

What is fucking wrong with some people? Study until mad then go get treatment lah…..It is probably not their fault if they are not in the right sense of mind. But getting F for no reason still makes me angry. What the fuck is this? I have 3 stressful weeks because of the performance next tuesday and the new course next year. I have my problems and getting chilled out of the blue pissed me off too. Nobody likes getting told off especially like as if I am not stressed?

Siao…

Mid week of the 3rd week of school reopen

Every Tuesday is a mad rush. 2 full practical classes and some rehearsals for the staff and student day next week. I stayed till 7.30pm yesterday.

It doesn’t help that some people do not bother to practise courtesy when they needed help from people. The way they ask for things is like demanding it to be shown to them right there and then. Don’t they learnt proper manners? Or is it that manners is not a common practise in their villages?

 

Imagine you are sitting on my work station wishing to borrow my personal work computer for use and you can ask me to please log out faster so that you can get the manuals done. If that is the case, I shall feedback to the management what kind of lecturer you are having. For the 3rd time she stepped into the office to borrrow a labcoat. Just freaking get your own. We are not your maid. If you have trouble coordinating your class, then please leave it to others who can afford the time to organise it better. Don’t bother to earn that extra cash. If you really need the money, then please jolly well do a good job about it. It is not like a waitressing job. I am not your support officer so don’t happy happy step into my office and expect me to help you like its part of my job. Its not. I stayed behind due to my work and helping you is jus out of politeness since I am around. It is already outside my working hours. What kind of lecturer is this? No moral ethics.

 

The students are getting better. The guys have been of great help. The ladies of certian classes definitely improved. But I am still afraid of the friday class..yecks. 

This week is traumatising

I have to prick the students for them to observe their blood cells. And boy, can they scream!

Good gracious. And they have to bleed the mice for collection of negative serum. And another screaming session.

The water pipe burst on wednesday slightly after 6pm. I freaked out. I was already sick and trying to leave the school early for a doctor visit. End up, I stayed till 8pm because the air con was leaking and I do not wish to see my mice being soaked.

Lucky Dr Lim was around and engaged Dr Tan’s help to close the valve of the pipe line. It was horribly scary to be alone in the lab. Errie. It was like so dark. Yecks.

Not good. I am super stressed. But then, I am not unhappy. Which have a difference in helping me cope with the stress.

I am just worried about that mouse which looked half dead after being over-bled on friday. No emergency phone calls to my handphone, so I assumed she is alright. But maybe I should pay her a visit tomorrow. Poor mouse. It is worse to be half dead. I rather it be put down if there is a need.

The end of the first (screaming) week

I am having a really bad sore throat. This is the first time that I have to address students everyday single day. It is not easy being a support officer. Especially when your lecturer is a very nice guy who don’t really scold his students. Oh my goodness. I have to be the black face god. Guess my throat is not used to it. Or rather it is happening to all the lecturers. I overheard Dr Hedy coughing in her room and gulping water.

All my 5 practical classes were being introduce to their mousey friends for the first time. And I am amazed at the lungs capacity of the girls. Mine, they can really screammmmmmed. The mice move, they scream, the moment they touch that rodent, they scream. And we are not talking about the time when the mouse suddenly decided to break free from scuffing, there will be a major screaming orchestra happening.

woah…one of my student asked me “TSO, you are not afraid of mice ah?”

“…. No.”

“Why ah?”

“….” I really don’t know how to answer this. I guessed its just my nature. I am an animal lover, doesn’t matter what animals. I am entermorphobic. But I will not really scream unless there is a huge caterpillar/cockroach appearing behind my back and I am being caught unaware.

Next week, we are bleeding the mice to collect blood. We are also poking the fingers of the students so that they can observed their own blood cells. I anticipate more screaming and probably fainting to happen.

What more, we are having a staff and student day whereby staff are suppose to perform items to entertain the students. And of course, being new staff, I got arrowed. And what else but belly dance. I have to trained the other new staff on the first 2 mins of ojos asi.

Oh man, I am soo going to be dead tired. But it will be fun I guess.

More screaming….more screaming!

School reopens

Anything that is capable of going wrong, went all wrong on the first day of school reopen for this new semester.

The labs air conditioning broke down, the animal house air con broke down, the DVD player is not working, the lap tops are not detected by the projector, the lecturers forget their notes, speakers, over head projector slides etc.

Stressed. Lucky my heart is strong enough to take these things.

Having gone thru 5 classes with 2 running concurrently, I have repeated myself for 2 groups per class with 4 classes. And I am suffering an ulcerated and painful throat.

 

Challenging job. Super tired and still my mood is not too bad.

I need sleep.